39 Weeks

A week has gone by since my treatment and I definitely feel better than I did. The first few days were a bit rough, but now I am just back to being nauseous and tired. I'm a bit more nauseous this round than I have been before - enough that I have taken medication for it. I also have had a few intense headaches. Luckily things have been getting better each day. Scans are in two weeks - I'm anxious to see what they show. Hopefully things are progressing in a positive way and no new cancer growth is seen. I never used to be nervous for scans but now the scanxiety is real! It will be a long day up at the hospital that day as I will have scans and most likely have an injection that day as well. I started to think about how long I will be in this treatment and if I have all 13 additional injections that will be 39 weeks. I could have a baby by then! If you counted how long since rediagnosis (36 weeks) then I technically could have two babies! How crazy is that? If it is working and I still feel pretty good then it really isn't that long to give up to have so much more time down the road. Still crazy to think about though..

Today I went to visit a close friend who is like a second dad to me. He was my boss for 6+ years and most people aren't too fond of him, but for some reason he and I just bonded from the very first weeks we knew each other. It was great to just sit and talk with him about life and he only really brought up my cancer for a minute or two to get the catch-up info and then to move past it as he knows I am more than just my cancer diagnosis. It was nice to have someone talk with me about their life and other things than just cancer. As I went to leave he started to tear up and just told me how he just doesn't know what I'm going through and couldn't begin to understand the emotions linked to it all. He said how scared he is for me going through all this. We had a good quick cry and then went our separate ways - he didn't want other people to see him actually having feelings. He's such a great man, happy that he is a father figure in my life.

I go to Seattle in two days and am pretty excited to have a change in scenery for a few days. I am hoping I have enough energy to keep up with the girls, might have to take some nap breaks each day. We shall see! It also doesn't help that I can't drink coffee yet and we are going to the coffee capital of the world practically... I might attempt to have some and see how I feel. Stupid acidity!

Here's to 39 more weeks - or less!!

This is how the tumor looks today

I went to the Greek Festival this past weekend and my friends all lit candles for me and I lit one for Mandy. I am not a religious person, but do believe in positive energy and thoughts.

My snuggle buddy this past week. She hates when I'm sick